My Ariel

Told by: Tara

My story starts with a blighted ovum.  If you want to read about my other losses, please check under Addison in 8 weeks and Adam in 17 weeks.  Aemon‘s story has been added here too.

Ariel Joanna 11-22-05.  Here is her story:

After trying to get pregnant for a year, we finally were excited to get a positive test! Everything was going well and I was feeling great. at 11 weeks, my OB couldn’t find a heartbeat, so she sent me for an ultrasound. I wasn’t worried because I was overweight and had a tilted uterus. It was always difficult getting that first heartbeat for me!  I got to the hospital and the ultrasound began. I could see the screen and saw an empty sac. I just figured the baby was hiding. The baby HAD to be there! I hadn’t bled or passed anything, so clearly the baby couldn’t get out.

After a few minutes, the technician explained I had what was called a blighted ovum. She said its where the baby just never develops, but the pregnancy continues along because it doesn’t know there is no baby. I discussed my options with my OB and we waited a few days to see if my body caught on.

It didn’t, so I scheduled a D&C, very hesitantly. The procedure was simple, the recovery, easy. My heart was broken, but I trusted that God knew what He was doing.

At the time, people made me feel like I didn’t have a real loss because there was no baby. I didn’t believe that because even though the baby never developed into a visible human, there was clearly an exchange of chromosomes and unique DNA was present. We don’t know the sex, but we named this baby Ariel.

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